EVEN ANGELS......

It cannot get better if it doesn't hurt. A statement I believe to be so true throughout life in any aspect.

Watch this video. I hope it moves you as it moved me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uh8afQK8D5k

I’m driving in circles, shoulda bought that new phone
I cant find my way to, all the places I call home
I’m (on my own)
I’m at the station pumping gas, yeah I’m taking out the trash
I’m (all alone)
And who’s there? Who’s there?


Since you been gone, I learned how to move on
How to be myself, I don’t need nobody so
I’m doing so good, I forgot that I could
Live like this, woohh


First step, take a deep breath
You don’t need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn… to fly

Coming home and it’s late night, shoulda left the lights on
I can’t help but imagine, all the things that could go wrong
I’m (on my own)
I’m in the kitchen on the chair, reaching for the top shelf
I’m (all alone)
And I’m ok, I’m alright

Everyday I’m stronger, cant get better, if it, if it don’t hurt
Why? Oh I! Oh I!
See me in my next life
Cause heartbreak’s a teacher, and I’ll love, I’ll love a little bit deeper
Why? Oh I! Oh I!
Yeah

First step, take a deep breath
You don’t need a reason why
You can, you can take, take time
You can, you can walk, run, dive
Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn…to FLY!!!!!!
FLY!!!!!! FLY!!!!!! FLY!!!!!!

Close call, you think you might fall
But all you gotta do is try
Even angels, even angels learn how to fly

Im big on song lyrics for some reason. I love music and it helps me facilitate my feelings. Its been a rough couple days in my life. Not due to any specific event. Lately for the past couple days I have felt very quiet inside, not much to say. I believe it is the Lord's way of talking to me and quieting my spirit so that he can speak to me.

I have a big transition in my life that will happen this November. I've been so excited about it that the hours feel like days and the days feel like months and so on. Today, talking to a sweet woman that's a great friend to me told me to live in the moment, enjoy this time in my life before it's gone. I realized that I wasn't really doing this. Its important to make big goals and dreams for ourselves but to also have small ones so that we feel like we are accomplishing things and moving forward.

So tonight... My room mate and I met for sushi and then headed over to Cheesecake factory for some delicious cheesecake that was so decadent that I won't even describe it to you because it will just tempt me to want more. Clearly afterwards, my body was hating me and it wasn't a wise idea. But you only live once right? Gotta indulge sometimes and Im an emotional eater and since I was feeling sad, it seemed like a good idea at the time. So my room mate and I decided that was a bad idea after we got home and our stomachs hurt soooo bad. We laid in bed and watched My Sister's Keeper! Oh my, that is by far the saddest movie I have ever seen! If I didn't get enough crying out in the last 2 days, I definitely got even more out tonight. But the movie sure makes you appreciate life and want to make it great and be proactive and healthy. So... I got really motivated and got my HIP HOP ABS DVD's out and did the AB SCULPT two times! Two times! Oh my! And if that wasn't enough, I then did the HIPS BUNS AND THIGHS one too! Whoa! My body will feel it tomorrow I'm sure. But I feel really good! Especially after having that cheesecake! oy!

I recently learned of a new protein shake which is a great thing to drink in the morning when I don't have time and definitely important to have after you work out so your muscles can heal and re cooperate. I order it off of www.allstarhealth.com and they have so many different kinds. I order the ISO PURE-ZERO CARB one. To find a zero carb protein shake is amazing! And the prices are amazing! You can get a 3 lb jar for $35.00 when they retail out for $50-85. That's a steal of a deal!

One of my favorite things to eat in the morning for breakfast though is to toast whole grain english muffins from Trader Joes. I don't put butter or anything on them. I Put 2 poached eggs on top and have some yogurt with granola in it. It's super yummy :)

I feel so much better about myself now that I'm being healthy. When I was doing my videos tonight and my room mate was doing them with me she told me I danced like a black person which I suppose I will take as a compliment because that means I have coordination! I'll take it! :)

These are some small goals that I have to get in shape and hopefully some day as a side hobby to help others get in shape as well! If I can do it, then so can anyone else!

When I start school again after my big move in November, I will be going for Nursing. It's interesting that nurses are in such high demand, however it's really hard to get into nursing programs. I used to think that I wasn't smart enough or I couldn't do it but I'm believing God will open the doors for me. I've never really been too interested in school because my TRUE hearts desire is to be a wife and a mom But I still need to go to school and trust in God's plan.

My mentor today told me she was sooo proud of me for all that I have overcome and that meant ALOT to me. Sometimes when your making so many changes in your life, you feel like sometimes your just stuck in one place not going anywhere. Its comforting to know your a person of positive influence.

Im headed to TX on the 15th and am EXCITED to get out of town and catch some warmer weather! I will post Pics when I get back!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATTI!!!!

:)