New Changes....

Today was a really good day...

Watched Emersyn and had a fun sushi date tonight with Patti!

I worked out tonight. Much of my desire is wanting to be healthier and much inspiration from Patti who is the ultimate shredder these days! I'm looking forward to seeing results and feeling better about myself.

So here's to a new body I hope! Summer time Here I come! :)

I had a pretty awesome night..

I had some fun late night bonding time with my room mate which are some of the best times ever! We get along so well and love living with each other. I love talking to her because we are both waitresses and she completely understands how I feel.

Sometimes I feel bi polar at work. One minute I love people and the next minute I can't stand people. It's truly incredible how mean people can be and you kinda just have to endure through it. On my days off I truly dont do much but detox myself so I can go handle another 5 days of waitressing. I make good money so I suppose it's why I put it up with it..

Anywho.... We are working out alot and eating healthy which is nice for it to be a household thing :)

My life has improved so much in the past 8 months, I am so glad! I'm so happy with life and where it's going this year. I have some exciting things coming up. Im continually thanking Jesus for a new life. It's so awesome. I'm constantly telling people that I am really blessed and I hope it doesn't get old because it's the truth. When you know where I have come from, you would agree.

I have said this a few times and ill say it again. Wednesdays are my favorite days because I get to spend them with a sweet little girl and whether or not she is naughty I love her. It reminds me how much I will love being a mother some day! :-) Oh baby fever! Leave me alone lol!

I feel so good after I work out. I don't like the pain but I know I will feel so much better about myself once I have the results I want. Hard work pays off!

This past week I have really been trusting in the Lord and I have felt his Love for me. What a feeling :)

I want to be in love with my best friend
I want to have lazy days, staying home, watching movies, cuddled up on the couch with the love of my life

I want to lay by the pool and relax with him
I want to come home and tell him how much I love him
I want to flutter with feelings of how blessed I am to have him in my life
I want to have a family with him
I want to sit there and laugh at nothing

This is whats on my heart today...

Baby and wife fever? Speed up the future please...

Well I seriously must have wife and baby fever this week! It must be all I think about lately! I have more motivation and desire to see that happen in my life than go to school. lol. But... I am praying that I would be content in where my life is at now and continue to trust in the Lord. I know he knows the desires of my heart and has a plan.

I have some really big decisions coming up and Im not very scared or anxious about them. I am confident I will make the right decision and that the Lord will guide me and give me peace.

Im really excited for a trip I have to Texas next month for a week to check out living arrangements and schools, etc. This is one of my top choices to move out of Oregon. The other is AZ. Please keep this in your prayers.

For those of you who know what I went through this summer, I had to attend an AA meeting last night with another girl as part of our treatment. It was the most akward and uncomfortable experience ever. All the guys wouldn't stop staring at us and it was so completely akward and you can visibly see that these people are cracked out still so to speak, for a lack of better terms. If you want to have a hate for sin then go to one of these meetings. It made me sick to my stomach to see this side of the world and how sickening it is.

Thank you Jesus that you have changed my life and are still changing me. Thank you that Im not the same person I was 7 months ago.

Today was an interesting day for me. I feel so blessed really to have amazing people in my life who love me and are always there for me. I really love to know that God is working in my life and to know that God is using me in other people's lives. It's such a blessing when you find out that you are.

I know that 2010 is going to be a much better year for me and I'm believe God for that. I'm getting closer and closer to paying off debt which is an amazing feeling friends. I feel so inspired to go for bigger and better things this year. One thing Im going to be starting soon is a fitness program called Insanity! and Yes just like the name its an insanely hard 60 day workout program but I really want to do this for myself and be healthy. Im going back to school in the spring hopefully and the degree Im going for is hard but I know that through Jesus, I can do it.

Im looking at moving out of Oregon at the end of this year which is a big change and big decision but I know God will lead me in the right direction.

Today one of my really good friends was in town for his grandpa funeral and he asked me to attend with him. I did and of course it was a difficult day for his family. It was nice hanging out with him and his family. I took him to the airport today and it was really super hard. I honestly am probably one of the most sensitive people you might ever meet. Goodbyes are super hard for me. If I had my way I would have all the people I love and care for around me all the time but that's being a bit selfish.

I finally got a brand new LCD TV for my house today and a coffee table and dining room set! I have worked super hard for all this and to finally see it all in place is amazing! Such a great feeling!

Today at the reception for the funeral, it was kinda bittersweet looking at all the young couples married with adorable children! My hearts desire is to be a wife and a mother. I had to say a little prayer because I know that the Lord is preparing me for that when the time is right. I'm focusing on JESUS JESUS JESUS!

Sorry about all my random thoughts today

A new life.....

Among many or maybe too many books I'm reading at the moment, one of my favorites is by Stormie Omartian--called Praying God's Will for your life. It's an incredible inspiring book that encourages me to daily seek God's will for my life. It's not about finding the right person to marry or finding the perfect career. It's about a way of life and an attitude that is God's will for everyone who knows and loves him.

Today I was reading about praying to move on with the Lord. I was thinking about what this meant for me. For me it's a big thing. Starting a new year and a new life, I am praying to move on with the Lord. There are 5 REALLY important key things that are highlighted and I believe really important to practice in order to move on with the Lord.

1. The word of God
2. Prayer
3 Praise
4.Confession
5. Ongoing forgiveness

They seem simple but not always easy. Stormie mentions that if we neglect any one of these, we end of with cracks in our foundation. And with a cracked foundation we never end up where we are supposed to be and never fully know God's will. Some people do get by. But.... I don't want to just get by.

These are more of my goals to be consistent in being in the word, praying, praising Jesus, Confessing my sins, and asking for forgiveness. Its incredible the illustrations the Lord gives us

I watch a sweet little girl who growing up way too fast! Today as i'm typing this she sits right next to me on the couch. when I put my drink on the table, she places her sippy cup right next to my glass. She loves to be next to me and hang out with me and play. I think Jesus is the same way. He wants to be right next to us, hanging out with us. I need to make more time for that with the Lord and allow him to be next to me. Im working on fully surrendering some tough things to the Lord. I need to allow him to turn my tables.

Be the kind of woman that when she wakes up and her feet hit the floor, the devil says--Oh crap, she's up!

This post is so long overdue! Life has been so busy with the holiday seasons but now that has come to an end and here we are in the new year already! It's really quite true what they say. The older you get the more time flies by.

2009 was a very tough year for me. I went through some really hard experiences and some really good ones. I hit rock bottom in a sense for me and had to make some big decisions! I'm very proud and happy about the decisions that I have made and am happy to continue on a glorious road that leads to Jesus.

With that said, I was very happy for 2009 to be over. I was anxiously awaiting the arrival of a new year, a new life, new goals, boundaries, dreams, and ambitions. It's kinda fun for me to be able to reflect on the past year and to decide where I want to go from that point, what I want to improve on, etc.

Some things I'm definitely focusing on are
*getting more healthy, hitting the gym
*Continue to put Jesus first and live my life for him
*I have strict boundaries on the public places I will go
*Let Jesus heal my heart and let him protect my heart for my future husband
*Don't eat out as much
*Finish paying off debt
*Go back to school

These are just a few things that are really important to me. It's JESUS JESUS JESUS!

I am confident that this year will be 10 times better than 2009 and I am excited to see it all unfold.